I don’t know that I have been “un-motivated”, but I haven’t been very productive that’s for sure. Which makes me think about what being productive really means. Like we have our monthly, weekly, and daily duties but do these to do lists and check boxes equal a fruitful life? Why? How closely related are joy and accomplishment?
I am thinking about daily routines versus daily practices. Like email is a routine, but photoshop is a practice. Up at 8am is a routine, but meditation is a practice. What is purposeful versus what is survival? What is mandatory and what is flexible? Why?
With the covid we are forced into quarantine, forced to relax and do nothing. And I have had plenty of days doing nothing. With the fight for equality we are forced into maximum action. And I have had plenty of days on the streets getting loud and documenting.
These opposing forces are creating world changing friction on all levels. For me, this is not just a reset but a whole new operating system install. And this process has been taking months and still going, lol. I am patient and realize it’s ok to not be “productive” right now.
We are sorting what is right and wrong in order to move on as a society. And what is right and wrong to move on as an individual.
The gap between society and the individual is where things are interesting. We know what society needs, we know what we personally need. But we can’t say shit about the needs of friends, family, colleagues, associates, etc.
People are going through their own reset and freak out and that is affecting relationships. Many recent cut-offs, divorces, breakups, beefs activated, etc.
Sorry, didn’t mean to go dark on here. Everything that is happening is happening for our betterment. We are moving towards a better version of ourselves. In order to make an omelette, we have to break some eggs. That is a fact.
We are now at the timeline convergence. You could say every moment is a convergence of timelines but in this case we are talking as a collective, as a society, as a planet. Our vibration will lead us to a particular timeline. Therefore we must be intentional with our vibration.
We will want to choose safety and security. We will want to choose comfort. It’s because it’s what we are taught. But this is a vibration of scarcity and of fear and it is what has got us in this mess we are in right now.
The “founders” of our country lead us with fear and disguise it as “freedom”, but real freedom isn’t worried about what the other guy is doing, real freedom isn’t about control or power. Real freedom isn’t about winning or losing.
Real freedom is free. That free-ness is infinite and unconditional. In this free-ness we find more than enough for everyone. This is the correct choice. This is correct vibration.
More than one person reached out to see what’s up with the blog since I haven’t posted in a while. Thanks and I’m ok.
Our lives have changed forever and I needed a time out to take notice. For me, it’s been difficult for proper thinking these days, mostly just been feeling. Feeling everything. Feeling everyone. I have been spending time out on these streets shooting and standing and marching and talking and sharing with people.
I experience the shit end of racism, prejudice, and discrimination on a regular basis. I am just used it, somehow it has just became normal. But it’s not normal. It’s anti-normal. It’s anti-human. And just like everyone else, I am hungry for change.
The quarantine has us looking at ourselves as individuals and the murder of George Floyd has us looking at ourselves as a collective. If you are fatigued, so am I and it’s ok to take a break. And if you are confused, it’s about the prosperity of the human race. For us to prosper, we have to hold accountable those that are preventing it. Specifically racist white people, cops, and politicians.
I say it like that because even after all that has happened, some people still don’t really get it to be quite honest. Or people get caught up in the politics and lose sight and become unclear where they are supposed to be.
There are many battle fronts to choose from. Street level, gov’t level, global level, galactic level. Choose your mission, choose your weapons, choose your coordinates, have purpose and take action. We need you. We need you mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
There are people that need your support. You should support them in any way that you can. We won’t be free till we are all free.
My Grandfather would say, “Let them fight,” when my brother, sister, mom, dad, aunts, uncles, cousins, and myself were fighting. “It’s what makes the world go around,” he would add. He liked to blurt out head scratching things, but always with a wisdom that I knew I would eventually understand.
He might’ve been talking about polarity and how we use it to generate flow of energy. We go from one end to the other end in a cycle creating friction and speed like stirring a pot.
Stirring the pot mixes ingredients from one side to side, but it also brings up old stuff from the bottom. Old stagnant stale stuff that comes to the surface in order to be removed. Like racism.
This is over though. We are on an accelerated path moving from polarity consciousness to unity consciousness.
We have moved from the “growing and evolving” era to the “delete file” and “create new file” era.
All kinds of fear energies are coming up and out in order to be deleted, burnt off, phased out.
Fear has made many people very sick, so sick that they are murdering other people for no reason. There is tons of work to do on an individual level and on a group level, but awareness is half the battle. We have to pay attention. We have to do our part. We have to look out for each other.
From the spiritual perspective that we are all one collective entity, racism is like a sickness in the body. It’s been there forever and it’s been out of control for 400 years or so and it’s time to fix it otherwise we die. We will die as a species if we don’t address this.
This is part of the shadow work as a collective. Shadow work is not macro, it is micro. And since this sickness is systemic, we gotta go micro.
Our individual daily actions steer the direction of the collective. We are going in the wrong direction. WE HAVE TO COURSE CORRECT. Hold yourself accountable and the people around you will begin to do the same. Treat people as you would like to be treated and the people around you will begin to do the same. Listen and you will be heard. See and you will be seen.
Hold yourself to a higher standard of behavior towards others, participate in creating higher standards of behavior towards others in all aspects of society and culture, especially at the levels of those who are supposed to “SERVE AND PROTECT” us.
We can all use some love right now. Not love from another person or a place or a thing. Self love. Honor yourself. Honor your talents and gifts. Honor your ability to affect the lives of those around you in a particular and personal and inspirational way. Honor your ability to make things happen. Honor your ability to rest.
Honor your mistakes/lessons. Honor your full range of emotions. Honor your human-ness. Honor your time. Honor your gratitude. Honor your solid states. Honor your flow states.