Mar 31 2019

Integration

This is Blake. He turned a small room into a fully loaded darkroom. Haven’t seen this nice of a setup in a while and it’s in an apartment!

I been thinking how, if ever, would all this esoteric stuff I been researching and studying creep it’s way into my photography. I mostly just shoot like I’m recording an auto biography and there’s usually nothing mystical about my daily life.

But I do come up with weird movie ideas. One story is about the concept that we came to Earth in order to experience the full range of emotions. In order to do that, we chose to be born with amensia. That is because if we knew everything at birth, that would contradict our life experience.

This would be a romantic comedy starring Adam Sandler. He would be born with full memory and he spends the entire movie trying to give himself amnesia without killing himself or getting permanent brain damage.

The title is, “I Thought Earth Would Be Different.”

I didn’t write a script but I liked the title so I used it for my new zine with Innen Books, get it here.

And then one night with a friend we were trying to come up with some cool shaman names. I came up with, “Infinite Brown Eagle.”

I ended up using that for the title of my new book. It was planned to be a series of 5 zines, but then I thought it would be a cooler as a book. It worked out to be 250 pages and will be out next week.

Mar 25 2019

More Notes

This is Laura. She’s 6ft tall and makes me feel like I’m that tall when cruising with her.

I made it back to LA and after a couple days I’m ready to get through mountains of emails and bills.

More notes on travelling.

Anytime you leave the apartment in SF or NY, lets say to meet a friend for coffee, somehow it’s $40.

I brought only a 28mm lense. Normally, it’s all I need but now I think I need a 40mm. I’d do the 40 or even 50 on the body and use my phone as the 28.

I used both my phone and Lumix equally but it’s redundant when both are the same angle of view.

As for work stuff, even though I can sorta “work” from my phone, it doesn’t mean its easier.

On the rainy days or days that I had time to myself where I should be trying to work, I really just wanted to read or catch up on Youtube.

My laptop is like 200 lbs and it has to be plugged in the whole time. It’s cumbersome and I should’ve left it at home.

I’m thinking a $200 Chromebook next time for travelling.

Great blog post, I know.

Also, I had multiple Instagram spazz out episodes. Like 3 of them that I talked myself out of, and then all of a sudden yesterday I deleted all my photos.

I figured out what my problem is. I have always printed my photos first. Either in print form or zine form or book form.

The LA book fair is coming up, so while I’m thinking about making either a new zine series or 1 book from all the photos I been shooting, I’m posting all the photos on Instagram.

Doesn’t seem like that big of a deal at first, but when you start the layout, even just in your head, the photos are now a little deflated since all your people already saw them on the internet.

Even if the photos aren’t really deflated, you are deflated like there’s no wind beneath your photoshop wings anymore.

Overthinking it, for sure. But I think I will reserve IG for photos already published, or for news of new publishings.

Mar 16 2019

Notes

This is Martin. He is awesome and brought the “get da fuck outta hea” anti-cornball vibes to our NY movie screening. Not that there were any cornballs there, but I haven’t felt that old school vibe in a while. We smoked a joint. And I don’t smoke so that’s how fun he is.

I’m almost back to LA, it’s been around 4 weeks from SF to NY and back to SF. Here are some notes.

Haven’t shot as much as I like. But that’s normal. I made my IG account into all portraits, so I find myself mostly looking for portraits which is fine. I wish I brought another lense or 2.

I’m getting old. Can’t stay out all night any more. Trying though. Also, it is hard to eat healthy on a tight travel budget.

It’s cool to meet all these photographers through Hamburger Eyes. I get down on myself sometimes, but this means I am doing my job correctly. These guys keep it going. “Wanna quit but can’t,” an Amart quote that comes to mind.

Lots of homies in transition. Is it something in the stars?